Christmas Presents

Lately, I have cut down all my links to the outer world. Temporarily, I have given up on socializing, both in the real and virtual worlds. Though I am sure, this phase is temporary, I am also sure it might last longer than I expect it to be. With too many opinions floating around, things have started to become a little difficult for me. I haven't learnt to cope with them yet. Looks like I am still brand new.

With Christmas just around the corner, I am totally in the Christmas spirit and ready with Christmas presents for everyone. In fact, I have already given away to most of them.
The most important one was: forgiveness. The present for the people who did something bad to me in the year gone by. Somethings are better given away then with held. So, I chose to give it away and let go of many bad memories which I do not want to take with me into the next year. Because the gift was to be given to all those people who were bad or mean to me, I had to accept to gift too. The most difficult task I have ever done in my life was just this: Forgiving myself. But, this done, shoulders feel less burdened and heart a lot lighter. I was even singing this morning, and that too after a long gap of about 7 months. A real big deal!

For all my friends, I have Love. I am proud to say that I have always had it in abundance in my heart for my friends. They mean a lot to me. So, its just a renewal of my vow this Christmas.

And not to forget myself, I have Self-respect as my Christmas present for me. We often compromise on it in our life, in various situations and Christmas is a wonderful time to give it back to ourselves. A little act of kindness to somebody is enough to get it back. This is what I am going do.

This has come as an afterthought. There are people in our lives whom we cannot really love because they are not friends but we cannot hate them because they are not enemies either. They are just acquaintances. For these people, I have trust: a present I have held too close to me for too long.

These are of the few steps I need to take this year to go happily into the next one. I want to take no bad lessons into next year. All that I want to take along with me is lots of love and some innocence.